Anonymous asked: Felice, I just want to say I'm a fan (if that's the right word for it) of your blog and I root for you in the struggles you've had to undergo. You don't have your shit entirely together and you don't pretend that you do, and I admire that immensely. I don't claim to know who you are as a person simply through your social media, but that doesn't make you any less than beautiful to me. Forever a follower.

Thank you lovely, I appreciate that a lot.

Anonymous asked: I know that your disease is very powerful and that you're in a constant struggle with it. But I just want you to know that even though you're struggling, even though you're mental exhausted and may not like how you look, you're beautiful. You with every last bit of good and bad, are beautiful. It takes GUTS to keep going like you do. Not a lot of people can get to where you've been and still remain alive. I'm so proud to see grow, and change with all of this. Your eating disorder is a demon.

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I wish I knew who you were. Thank you.

Anonymous asked: Do you believe that purpose and meaningfulness exists in life?

No. I believe that existence in general is entirely pointless and there is no purpose to anything, but with that said, existence is an unavoidable fact, it’s reality, which is why I still value kindness, compassion and correct morals, and is also why I can’t identify as Nihilist. Kind of like a never ending circle that we’re all walking around; no reason, no meaning, no point, no ending that will bear any relation to our existence, but we’re here, so we might as well make it bearable, because it requires the same amount of effort as making it unbearable.

Anonymous asked: Is it hard to continue with recovery when you don't have much family around as support? I'm sorry if this is too offending or invasive. You don't have to answer at all- just curious. Stay strong, beautiful!

Yeah, pretty much the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do is keep waking up every morning now that my dad’s gone, let alone eating. Not entirely sure how I’m doing it, but I am. Thank you.

Going to have a warm bath then go for a long morning walk with my furchildren in the forest. :)

Anonymous asked: 'Pissflaps' is a hilarious swear word. I might have to start using that one. Did you come up with it yourself?

My friend and I back from when I was like 13 made it up and I’ve been using it ever since, but I’ve seen loads of other people use it so either we’re awesome and started it or other people had the same idea haha.

Curtains closed. Introverted me time now.

Anonymous asked: Why are you covered in blood?

Ripped one of my pissflaps off while furiously masturbating.

Anonymous asked: Hey, you're okay. It's alright. You're worthy, you're good. You're good enough. You're good enough. It's alright.

hearyourvoicessingbackl0uder asked: Do you like it when people tell you that you've gained weight?

Yes and no. My disorder hates it but ‘I’ like it. The problem is separating the two, but that’s part of recovery, so bring it. :3